Christmas is like a house of horrors. I’m confronted by so many memories and so many failed relationships. And by the fact that I can’t be with the people that I love the most and that they don’t have time for me today. It’s excruciating.
I need to be better. I need to continue to hold space for others who experience this pain. I need to continue to devote myself to others…but this pain is so real and difficult. And of course, it could be worse. I need to be grateful for what I have. My heart just feels deflated, like a flat tire.
I really don’t want anyone else to ever feel like this. So maybe my goal next year is to figure out how to position myself so that no one else does. I’ll figure it out.
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